Saturday, November 13, 2004
qUeStiOn..
Hmmm.. recently went out to study wif my "mei".. as u all can read from e previous post.. she asked me a qn.. "did u msg her (my ex..)??" i ans "yes, but veri seldom.." from her birthday till now.. e no. of times i smsed her cant even make up one of my hands.. den she asked me "why??".. tt time i said bcos i got nothing much to say to her anymore.. and i doubt she got anything to say to me.. she said issit bcos i still love her?? i say dunno.. i juz said is bcos realli nothing much more to say la.. she shld be leading her life now and i shld oso be leading mine without each other..
But.. i noe tt using "nothing much to say" as an excuse is bullshit la.. once a stead.. how can there be nothing much to say?? even asking hows life can be a topic.. haha.. i noe la.. but after tinking through.. i finally noe le.. i nv sms her not bcos i got nothing to say.. perhaps i got alot of things to say.. but it juz cant come out of my mouth la.. i nv sms her is bcos it has become a habit le.. it become a habit of not smsing her.. i tink it is veri normal rite?? a frd who u nv sms for a long long time and nv talk to each other for a long long time u will bound to feel wierd when u wan to speak to them.. don tell me "No".. its crap.. will feel awkard de la.. even frds will feel awkard.. let say being ex.. am i right?? its realli hard to be frds like tis de lo.. not bcos i don wan to la.. haha..
Today listen to a song.. e title is quite meaningful.. it is called "shi1 nian4 biao1 qian1" meaning "tag for losing love.." haha.. dunno translate correct anot.. it practically mean when u break up.. everyone will label u as someone who lost e love.. as though it will be forever le.. onli time can tell rite?? everyone is like tinking tt i still haf not get over e break up.. even if i say get over liao they still insist.. -_-".. make me feel like i nv get over oso.. diaoz.. get over anot issit so impt?? as long as i am happy can le ma.. as long as i can lead my life normally can le ma.. as long as i can fall in love again does getting over realli so impt?? my definition of getting over is be frds again.. but lookin at e situation now.. its hard to be frds.. does it mean i forever i cant get over?? its true tt it takes time la.. and one fine day u will eventually get over and be frds.. but when e times come.. perhaps its e time when u fall in love wif someone else.. it will be a long long time from now.. and so wat if we be frds?? sms each other as normal?? talk to phone?? haha.. will ur gf tt time be glad tt u are so gd to ur ex?? wat will happen if she ask who u msging and u say its my ex?? haha.. she will kill u de lo.. :P..
Anyway.. tts all for today.. tis post juz put for fun de la.. no meaning de.. juz for reference.. haha.. k.. back to mugging.. sianzzzz.. jia you everyone!!
NiKe_bOi
10:48 PM
